October 19th, 2006 (11:45 am)
current mood: groggy
current song: NIN - The Wretched
Had a really fucked up dream last night. It's a bit fuzzy now and I can't remember the details, but I most certainly remember being at a lakeside house of some sort. The lake was completely filled with dead bodies. Humans, animals....just full of dead things. The water was thick with floating bits of things that had rotted off, and even at the shore they were washing up in the hundreds, suffocating the beaches. The stench was unbelievable, I remember it clearly. Then I was looking through statues and figurines, each of which represented death in some way. I knocked one over by accident and found that beneath the statue was the dead body of a fetal child. I began to chip at all of them, and each had the dead baby in them.
After that I believe I was in some large building, like a school gym, and I was playing a game where I had to dodge a razor sharp saw, and it kept cutting me up but I was stumbling and couldn't avoid it. It was one of those circular ones, and it was just flying around on its own. There was mesh netting along the top which I managed to climb onto, but I kept falling down and getting cut up again. My hands started to get so slippery with my own blood that I fell down to the floor and couldn't move anymore. Ryan was in there, and I was trying to warn him to get out but I was out of breath and the saw ended up cutting him as he was trying to save me. God it was fucked up.
I really don't know what the deal was with it, but I just woke up a few minutes ago and it's left me with that unsettling feeling that'll probably stay with me all day. My alarm was going off for nearly an hour, and I could hear it clearly in my dream and knew what was going on, but I couldn't drag myself out of sleep. I was trying to, and I wanted to wake up, but the dream was just pulling me back. It was as if it wouldn't let me go. By the time I managed to wake up I had a headache from the alarm sounding for so long.
Day's barely started and already it's messed up. o_O