mistressmorbid

Help hatch my adoptable dragons! xD

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 04:52:25 GMT

Well, things are better since my last depressing post. Don't really feel like going into details because I'm lazy right now. =P But everything's good.

Anyways....onto the real point of this entry, lol.

I've become addicted to these stupid adoptable dragon sites and I need everyone's help to hatch my dragons. xD

Basically the more times people click on them and visit their page, the faster they grow. So if you're all bored please give them a visit to help them out. ^_^ And heck, if you're bored tomorrow you can repeat the clicks, haha!

>>>Click here to go to my Dragons!<<<

THANKS! <3

What day is it?

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 06:50:18 GMT

...just my thoughts, personally.

Mmm.....hot chocolate

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 05:31:03 GMT

Well, Ryan's been away this weekend on a business trip so tonight I decided to pamper myself a little. I can't remember the last time I had a relaxing, quiet evening to myself. Once I got home from work today I drew a hot bath complete with bubbles, candles, and bath salts. After that I wrapped up in a comfy bath robe, made the white hot chocolate I got in my stocking this year, and am about to curl up in bed with a book. The first in the series A Song Of Ice And Fire, I haven't read them in years and I'm looking forward to the familiarity of an old friend. I must also add that it is one of the greatest series ever written. If you haven't read them yet, go buy them. Right now.

Anyways....yes. Looking forward to comfort. I've got the curtains open in the bedroom window so I can look at the snow outside and feel even more warm and comfortable, tucked into bed with my book and hot chocolate. I'll actually get a good sleep tonight...I don't have to work tomorrow. I'm excited beyond words. This is the first time in ages I haven't just come home and gone to my computer....well, obviously I'm on it right now because I'm posting this, but I haven't been on it at all today. I don't even feel like staying on it, I just want to go read in bed all night...

Bliss!

ZOMG!

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 06:41:06 GMT

So, really exciting news!

I found out that the new girl we hired at work, Simone, does tattooing. She's 3 months away from being professional, and she plans on opening up her own piercing/tattoo place someday. Anyways, I've always had an interest in tattoos, and a lot of people said I should go into it. But I never knew how to get started or anything, or if I'd be any good. I asked her some questions about it and she told me to bring in some samples of my artwork. So today I brought in my sketchbook of doodles and she really liked my style. She said my work was awesome and that she'd love to take me on as her apprentice. =O! I'm just...really excited. I never thought I'd get an opportunity like this. After christmas is over we're going to go out for coffee and talk about it more. She's got all these extra supplies like the tattooing needle and ink and everything, and she'll even give me lessons (hee, we start out by practicing on lemons and oranges xD).

I know my art needs some work, I haven't had time to just sit down and practice for ages. But if I really start practicing I think I can sharpen my skills up to be good enough for tattoos. At least I already have a bit of my own style, I just need to perfect it more.

If I manage to become good at this I might be looking into a future career in tattooing!!! How freaking awesome would that be, it's so perfect! I get to draw and hurt people at the same time. xD She said she could also teach me piercing.

Gah, I'm all happy today because of that. Nothing's ever seemed to work out for me like this before, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. ^^

Fun music thingy...

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 18:41:10 GMT

Stolen from Shauna. ;D Go into your music player and hit random. Then put the songs in the order you get them (and no cheating!)

If My Life Were A Movie

Opening Credit: Mortiis - Across the World of Wonders (I doubt anyone else has this song...but it actually works really well! xD It's all instrumental and cool)
Waking Up: Mushroomhead - The Dream Is Over (kinda creepy how well that one works too, as you can see by the title)
First Day at School: Disturbed - Conflict (hahaha...here's some lyrics for ya "You are, enemy. You are my hated enemy.")
Falling in Love: Bella Morte - Soma (aww, it's a pretty song!)
Fight Song: Combichrist - Get Your Body Beat (hell's yeah....that's a kick ass fighting song)
Breaking Up: 3 Inches of Blood - Destroy the Orcs (hahahaha)
Prom *cough* Grad: Korn - Dead Bodies Everywhere (xD)
Life's OK: Razed In Black - Blush
Mental Breakdown: Devildriver - Swinging the Dead (heh...sweet)
Driving: Type O Negative - Everything Dies (hmm...maybe a sign I shouldn't start driving? xP)
Flashback: NIN - Head Like A Hole (I think it kinda works)
Getting Back Together: Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love (hehe)
Wedding:Dimmu Borgir - Puritania (wow, kick ass wedding song...that's like harcore death metal xD)
Birth of Child: Slipknot - My Plague (good...I don't want a kid)
Final Battle: In Flames - Take This Life (oooh..nifty)
Death Scene: Apocalyptica - Nothing Else Matters
Funeral Song: Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl (haha, awesome)

Bleh...

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 15:50:47 GMT

So...this whole winter thing isn't working out for me very well. We have a mutual hatred of each other I believe.

Friday night the busses were all running late thanks to the icy roads, so I was just standing out in -40 degree weather for over a half hour. By the time I got back into town I'd missed the bus that takes me back to the apartment, so I had to walk. Even though I had so many layers on the cold just bit right through them and froze me to the bone. I couldn't move my toes at all by the time I got home, and my legs had actually taken on a blueish hue.

Saturday morning as I leave for work, the stairs outside were coated in so much ice that you couldn't even see it. So naturally as I'm going down them I slip, bang my head on the railing, and fuck my ankle up pretty badly.

Now it's Monday and my ankle's all purple and bruised looking, and it still hurts. I was sure that it would be fine by today but it's not, so I have to miss work again. I think I'm going to try to see a doctor today. Ugh...what a pain in the ass. I'm not missing another day of work because of this stupid thing, I'll hobble in tomorrow if I have to, but I want to make sure it's not broken or anything. =/

This looks like fun

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 07:02:06 GMT

Stolen from Sydney...take a stab at it! Even if you don't know me that well, it's just for fun. ^^

(2 Points) My name:
(1 Point) My last name:
(5 Points) Take a stab at my middle name:
(3 Points) Who was my first celeb-crush:
(3 Points) Who is my current celeb-crush:
(2 Points) Do I have any children:
(2 Points) How old are they:
(2 Points) What work do I do:
(3 Points) What am I afraid of:
(2 Points) Do I smoke:
(3 Points) Do I drink:
(2 Points) Do I have any siblings:
(2 Points) How many:
(1 Point) Do I like 'em:
(4 Points) What's one of my favorite things to do:
(2 Points) How many tattoos do I have:
(3 Points) What's my favorite type of music:
(2 Points) What's my favorite TV show:
(2 Points) Who is my favorite band/artist:
(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing:
(3 Points) Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
(2 Points) What’s my favourite colour:
(3 Points) Name something I hate:
(4 Points) Name a talent I have:
(4 Points) What kind of shoes do I wear most often:
(4 Points) Do I have any pets:
(2 Points) Who am I dating right now:
(5 Points) What did I study in university - or am GOING to study:
(5 Points) What is the colour of my room:
(5 Points) What is my worst habit:
(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island, what would I bring:

80-85 Points — Stalker Extraordinaire!
70-79 Points — Hard-Working Stalker
40-69 Points — Decent Stalker
20-39 Points — Stalker-In-Training
00-19 Points — Crappy Stalker or New Stalker

Bleh...

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 00:10:19 GMT

I'm sick and lazy so I'm just doing a few more quizzes today. =P

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Birthdate: February 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world.
You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.
Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.
Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done.

Your strength: Your inner peace

Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds

Your power color: Emerald

Your power symbol: Leaf

Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

Oh noes, survey attack!

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 06:06:17 GMT

I blame Sydney. xD

Your Eyes Should Be Green

Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger

What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Are a Dragon

You are very charismatic and incredibly popular.
People are drawn to your energy, but you are a very difficult person to get to know.
You are very active - you are usually hard at work or play.
You enjoy drama, and you enjoy anything unusual or eccentric.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.
You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.
People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.
When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.
At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.
And at other times, you are wise like an iris.
And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are 48% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 16%

Sure, no job is perfect - but yours is pretty close.
You're resepcted by your co-workers and boss.
Plus, you usually get credit for your succcesses.
Don't quit, unless you know you've got something better lined up.

Should You Quit Your Job?

Happy hangover day

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 17:45:08 GMT

Owwwwwwwww...

I think I'm going to die.

And I have to go to work.

OMGHALLOWEEN

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 16:08:44 GMT

Stolen from Ziggy =3

You went trick or treating as DEATH.
DavyJones gave you AFishBiscuit.
MrNorrell gave you ACordialCherry.
RegShoe gave you TheSignOfIron.
Jesus gave you ASweatyGymsock.
You had a rotten time until DoctorManhattan taught you the Numbers.

What's Your Trick-or-Treat Haul?
Shiver My Timber--A Pirate RPG

Lmao, I got a sock from Jesus. xD

*runs off to work*

Bored =P

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 13:20:34 GMT

So I went to bed at like 10:00, woke up at 3:00am and am now still awake.

Played Warcraft for a bit, now I'm just kinda sitting at my computer. Booorrreeeddd.

I did the geek test. 47% ;)

Personality Disorder Test

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 07:03:18 GMT

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	High
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

Just for the hell of it...

Recap of my life

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 08:21:30 GMT

I don't know why I feel like doing this, maybe I'm just tired. Anyhoo, I'm going to do a recap of my life, I suppose it's more for my sake, but feel free to read if you like.

So I moved out here to Edmonton in February, only two days after my birthday actually. It wasn't fun being hungover for an 18 hour drive. =P The whole moving thing actually came about really quickly. Me and Ryan sort of talked about it one night in a Wendy's, and next thing we know it's happening and we're packing up to leave! Craziness.

We stayed at my brother's house at first while we looked for an apartment. We started out downtown, but honestly the apartments out there were pretty fucking creepy. The bottom windows of some buildings were all smashed in, and the neighbourhoods in general didn't look too friendly. So then we took a look around St. Albert, which is the more poshy/expensive area around here, but a really nice place. It's where my brother lives, and we thought we wouldn't be able to afford a place but then we found a really great apartment with an affordable price.

It's a great area, really peaceful, and it's close to the main shopping center and bus loop and everything, which is convenient. When we first got here I got a job at Save-On in the bakery again (bleh!), but it was only till I found something better. And something better did come!

In the West Edmonton Mall there's a great store called Millennium which I'd stalked since we arrived. I was always saying stuff like "Wow, I so wish I could get a job there, it would be great", but I never thought I'd actually be able to. Then one day, just for the heck of it, I decided to hand in a resume. I was asked to come back the next day and BOOM, I landed myself a job.

I was freakin ecstatic, and I still find myself feeling lucky as hell to get such a great job. It's the perfect store for me, and everyone who works there is so awesome. I've made friends with all my coworkers, and thanks to them I've discovered great places such as New City, the gothy sort of club downtown that I've started to frequent every weekend. And I've made even more friends there.

We got ourselves a cat in March also, since being without a pet was too lonely to bear. I miss my Duke so much. We looked into the Edmonton Humane Society and kept tabs on the kittens they were getting. We went in one day and there was this adorable black and white male and I knew that he was perfect for us. We named him Dexter, and I don't think we could have found a better cat. He's crazy, but I love him to pieces.

Well, that's the gist of it. A quick summary of my new life here in Edmonton. The transition was surprisingly easy. In some ways I feel as if I just got here, but in others it's as if I've been here my entire life. The only things I really miss are all my friends back in BC, and my puppies. Hopefully I'll try out the post secondary institutions in the near future, once I figure out what I want to do. It's really awesome living so close to my brother, since I can hang out with him and his kids all the time now. And at least BC isn't too far away, so if we saved up some cash we could easily go back for a visit.

*yawns* And with that I think I might just head to bed...

Uneventful Day...

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:59:11 GMT

Not a whole lot to write about, but I told myself I'd start writing in this everyday so I'll jot something down.

Had a nice relaxing day off. I slept in until 1pm, then just sort of lazed about in PJ's on the internet all day. xD We went grocery shopping later on, so now our house has FOOD again! Rejoice!

...aaaaannnddd that's about it. Exciting, huh? =P I should probably be going to sleep about now since I work tomorrow, but I truthfully don't feel very tired at the moment. I'm starting to get kind of hyper actually. God...I need sugar.

Rest of the day...

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 05:48:32 GMT

So I almost missed the bus to work today due to the whole dream-fucking-me-up thing this morning. I didn't feel like doing anything fancy so I barely put on makeup and just kind of wore scrubby clothes.

It wasn't that great of a day to start with, and feeling gross and ugly doesn't really help it. But a guy came up to me at work and said "Sorry if this is weird, but I just wanted to say that you're really gorgeous. Again, sorry if that creeps you out or anything, but you're really beautiful."

I was kind of shocked, but flattered, so that made my day a bit better. It wasn't a creepy sort of compliment either, he was really nice and sincere about it. Anyways, yeah, that cheered me up and the rest of the day went pretty well.

So hungry now though...and we have no food. =( And I think I'm in a really NIN mood lately, it's been the soundtrack to my life.

This is what it feels like...

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 17:55:31 GMT

Had a really fucked up dream last night. It's a bit fuzzy now and I can't remember the details, but I most certainly remember being at a lakeside house of some sort. The lake was completely filled with dead bodies. Humans, animals....just full of dead things. The water was thick with floating bits of things that had rotted off, and even at the shore they were washing up in the hundreds, suffocating the beaches. The stench was unbelievable, I remember it clearly. Then I was looking through statues and figurines, each of which represented death in some way. I knocked one over by accident and found that beneath the statue was the dead body of a fetal child. I began to chip at all of them, and each had the dead baby in them.

After that I believe I was in some large building, like a school gym, and I was playing a game where I had to dodge a razor sharp saw, and it kept cutting me up but I was stumbling and couldn't avoid it. It was one of those circular ones, and it was just flying around on its own. There was mesh netting along the top which I managed to climb onto, but I kept falling down and getting cut up again. My hands started to get so slippery with my own blood that I fell down to the floor and couldn't move anymore. Ryan was in there, and I was trying to warn him to get out but I was out of breath and the saw ended up cutting him as he was trying to save me. God it was fucked up.

I really don't know what the deal was with it, but I just woke up a few minutes ago and it's left me with that unsettling feeling that'll probably stay with me all day. My alarm was going off for nearly an hour, and I could hear it clearly in my dream and knew what was going on, but I couldn't drag myself out of sleep. I was trying to, and I wanted to wake up, but the dream was just pulling me back. It was as if it wouldn't let me go. By the time I managed to wake up I had a headache from the alarm sounding for so long.

Day's barely started and already it's messed up. o_O

Moving Forward

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 08:54:31 GMT

This is my new livejournal account, a fresh start if you will.

I found my original account was too cluttered with things long since past. It was weighted down by the darker periods in my life, and although I'm against 'erasing' things from your past, I just didn't see the need to keep it online.

A lot has changed since then, it's been 2 years at the least, and I feel that maybe this time around I can actually use this journal instead of letting it sit and collect dust.

So here goes, new life, new journal. We'll see how things turn out.